Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Sorry Everyone.

Thanks to advise me this evening. This is really important at the first place. At the glance, I feel embarrassing. But, this will end soon. I'm try, gradually to change myself, my appearance, and I will show my true colour and my true quality. The love matter that make me sick, I hope this will never happen again. To my beloved family, I'm so sorry. I dunno how to explain. but, yesterday make me became like this.

Yesterday, I'd really wanna run from home. I don't wanna live like this forever. Dad, forgive me. I can't continue like this. Yesterday, I got Sis Zana to motivate me. Now?? Am I'm really the psychopath??

To someone that feel I'm your destiny, please think twice and give up on me. I'm really hurt with your matter.

To all of my students, I'm so sorry. Tomorrow, I wish I can't become someone that full of inspire. I'm not showing off, Not in my mind. But, I dunno how to communicate to the youngsters differ from friend. And, the big mistake I ever made is, I dunno what is the true mistake.

God, forgive me. I'll try to face this in my entire life. Someone just accuse me that I wanna find my bride here. No. This is not my goal. My goal is, I wanna guide the adolescent to become a good adult. If I failed, I'm sure I'll quit from this field. But, I'm not give up yet. Give me more time. O god, give me a full strength to become the teacher with full of inspiration and aspiration like him.

15 comments:

  1. I'm really want a listener right now... I'm feel colder... and colder... and colder...

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  2. Hey, what happen Zam? Go out and hang out with friends. Choose the one who you can trust and can make you laugh. You need that. When you feel cold, its the sign that you are in great depress. Be careful because it will lead to suicidal thought. You must be strong. You must be wise. It happen to me before but it won't happen again.

    Be strong Zam!

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  3. hey, u always have us here..sometimes maybe we come and go, but of course, my pray is always for your happiness Sir!

    U can do it~

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  4. Brian: Thanks bro for the wise advice... yeah, I'm in a great depress right now... 3 months ago, I feel I wanna give up, but... Now, I feel I wanna survive... Pray that I will survive...

    ZaraThanks for your support... Life must go on... I'll change it..

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  5. Thanks... rest indeed... but, I need it...

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  6. Thank God that you are fine now :)

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  7. kewl kay...relax...take a deep breath kay..:) chilllss

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  8. Sir,is this because what i've said to you?i'm so sorry..i don't think wisely before i said something..r u mad at me?i said to you before i don't want to say anything the you force me to said what i think about you..i didn't mean it to be this way..i know i'm being rude to you the hole time..but yet i can't kept it inside my heart because then you will think you had done ur best but ur students didn't think like you..i know you want to be a great teacher but nothing works..seriously sir,u can do something to make ur lesson more fun..its such a bored thing to study science so its ur job to make it more interesting..just like i said,although we r the best class..but we r still students who need to learn something..if the best student in our class couldn't understand what you r teaching, what about us?and the love thing i'm completely sorry..i don't know you felt something about it..its just some trash that came out from my mouth..sorry sir for what i've said..i promise i will never tell you anything ever..i don't want you to have such hard feeling towards me..enough of this..just do your best..

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  9. lari topik sket nih....

    bro zam...nak join paintball cam ner ek? siyes teringin nak isi masa lapang main paintball

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  10. Brian: I can accept every pressure.... But, The negative thinking influenced me to be pessimist... I'll try to manage my stress by my own... Since I'm not the student anymore... So, I dont have any counsellor to advise me... Wisely I thought to change home... and live this land to the greedy one...

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  11. Ms~Zana: No, it not your fault at all... Seriously I've discuss with Pn JJ three months ago... But, she just advise me to continue... I'm fall sick, because I didn't manage my stress... That drive me to become non-smart teacher... Beside of the question all of you ask... "why you stay at the school everyday?" because I don't wanna go home early... I've a lot of problems at my home...

    Gradually, I try to make my class more fun, since nobody understand my jokes... and, I'll follow Mr. Wee advise back there... Maybe I'll reduce the study speed... hmm...

    Honestly, I dont want my students becoming worst because of me... This is my biggest concern right now... I'm open-minded and always think of improvement... For me, peoples that scold me, torture me and advise me are my friends... Peoples that praise me all of the time are my enemy...

    But, last two day, astonished that the thing come too late... like the eldest said... 'nasi dah jadik bubur' and if I can change it, I change... And Pn JJ said "please don't give them too much, give only 60%."

    *And I'll suggest the abolition of the Practical book. Student manage to do their own full report in their own book...

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  12. Yanie: huhu... ok, go to the website stated in the previous post... the address and contact numbers stated there...

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  13. sir,i got an idea..but can't say it here..tell you all about it later..maybe it can help you to make your class more fun..or maybe you'll think it is stupid or what..judge it later k..

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  14. mz~yana: ok... I'll listen from you... straightly...

    maybe before this, nobody wanna speak out this matter because the student-teacher gap... damn the gap!!!

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